This Time It's Personal

LOOPY: A Post-Mortem

Loops changed my life. Three years ago, I picked up a copy of Donella Meadows' Thinking In Systems. The core idea of her book is this: we humans tend to think of the world in linear cause-and-effect – X causes Y, Y causes Z, and so on. But the world is…


A Constellation of Guiding Stars

As my mama always said, every pipe bomb has a silver lining. 2016 hasn't been the most uplifting of years, world-events-wise. This summer we saw two lone-wolf terrorist attacks, shootings of police and by police, as well as a violent military coup attempt. And personally, I'm worried by the rise…



reflecting on :the game:

Holy nostalgia, Batman! I found the original concept "art" for a videogame I made eight years ago. (And on my birthday, too! It's my birthday today! It's a really sad & tragic date but whoo birthdayyyyy!) On November 1st, 2008 – remember that? the week obama was elected? – I uploaded to…



A Problem With "Emergent Evil"

Apparently, my last post on emergent evil – the idea that good individuals can nevertheless be part of an evil collective – resonated with a lot of people! More than I thought it would. It even got a tiny write-up on KillScreen, for some reason. But even though I think 'emergent evil'…


Nicky Reads: Feeling Good

I've been struggling with anxiety for a long, long time. I've mostly dealt with it by trying to channel it into my work – but I thought it was about high time I did more formal, evidence-backed therapy techniques. Buuuuut I can't afford a therapist, so this book had to do.…


The Building Block Hypothesis

First of all, this is not how evolution works: Evolution isn't linear, it's more like a tree. I used to believe evolution worked like this: 1) random mutation 2) non-random selection 3) repeat. And on the tree of evolution, mutation gives us more branches, while selection prunes the crappy branches:…


imma bee

Usually, whenever I take notes, plan a project, or do a diary entry, I don't only use words. I draw and doodle all the time. Yet, that's what a blog is by default – just words – and that just doesn't cut it for me. Well, that's my excuse for not touching…


Make Bad Art

Yesterday, I wrote about a babbling brook. I couldn't stop taking pictures of a beautiful forest, and felt guilty I was compulsively recording everything instead of "simply living the moment". But once I started jumping around to get exciting angles, rearranging stones for better composition, moving aside plants to get…


A Babbling Brook

There I was, standing alone in the forest, standing amongst the trees. I heard nothing but the rustle of canopies, the soft bubbling of a nearby stream, and my own mind getting quieter and quieter. But in that moment, I was hit with the sudden, strong urge... ... to snap some…


Thought Tools

Technology gives us tools for our professional lives. Art gives us tools for our personal lives. For years, I felt a guilty about making videogames. Computers are one of the most powerful creative tools of the last decade, and here I am making disposible playthings for tits and giggles. With…


Questions from eyeO

As a speaker this year for the eyeO festival, (yaaaaaay!) I was asked a few personal questions for a biography and other festival-y shenanigans. I thought my answers (constrained to 175 words per response) were interesting enough to post on this blog that nobody reads, so here we go: What's…


Active Arts

Interactive Arts. That's what I want to explore more of in 2015. Like looking through a keyhole on a locked door, Parable of the Polygons gave me a peep into the wonderous mysteries beyond. And that excites me. I am trying very hard for this metaphor to not sound like…